School Germs and My Toddler, the Dictator

Needless to say, I'm having a fantastic week. OY VAY. Seriously, this is why I hate Natalie going to school. Well ok, so I hate not being in control of her situation for 4 hours, twice a week, but really I'm getting used to it. BUT I just hate hate hate hearing children sound like they are coughing up a lung when I drop her off. :| I just want to cover her mouth and pick her up and RUN out the door. I've always heard the horror stories of stomach flu, regular cold flu, etc being spread through the snotty hugs and slobbery sharing that is...school. One other thing I hate is when people ask, "does she have a fever?" First the husband asks me, then says "it sucks we can't get a refund." That really irritates me. Then I call the school to tell them she isn't coming in because she is sick. This woman then asks, "oh, does she have a fever?" REALLY?? REALLY??? You need to ask? Like I'm lying? It could be that they just want to know in case others start getting sick. I simply just said, "she is a little warm, but her head is hurting and she's coughing and sneezing and she won't be in." But I'm STILL mad. I absolutely HATE being questioned. I grew up being asked if I was sure all the time. I AM sure and I no longer want to live under this "questionable umbrella" because it stopped me from doing so many things in my life. It seems kind of a stretch to move from a sick kid, to my emotional road blocks, but it just stirs it up inside of me. One thing I want you girls to know is that I'm not going to question you when there is something in your life that you are passionate about. I'm not going to make you feel like you should be doubting yourself. It's an awful, unaccomplished, lonely feeling. I want you to be strong, independent and bad ass women. It took me 30+ years to figure out exactly who I am and what I need to do in life. I should've had that foundation, that confidence a long, long time ago. BUT at least I have it now and I know that it was ME that got me here. Now, onto the "Dictator." Hayden, I love you. I really, truly love you. There is not "but." I just think it's funny that you are trying SO hard to become the queen of the house. Oh, hunny bunny...that just AIN'T gonna happen. :) I'm sure you are reading this thinking otherwise or maybe laughing. You are knocking on the door of 19 months, and you try your best to ignore what I say and do as you please until time out is involved. Usually I can tell you that you are not being nice to mommy and that you need to sweet. I get a little hug and a head on the shoulder and a "luh youuuu" YES...you are saying "luh youuuu" now. Last night you were CA-razy, and at around 8:15 (just before your bed time) you came to mommy and said, "Nap, mommy....nap." I said, "oh? you want to go take your nap? you want to go seep?" You said, "uh-huuuuuh" So that was pretty cool. Never have I heard a child say they want to go to sleep. :) You definitely are very decisive and know exactly what you want, when you want it. That is also a bad thing, some times. :) We need to work on your patience a little bit. If mommy has to work on it then so do you. We just decorated for Halloween!! Yippee!! :) Mommy's fave time of year. I was feeling a little confuse with decor this year, because of all my redecorating. Our house has a lot more color and personality so I had to be more subtle and creative with the halloween colors. It is coming along. :) Only bad thing is Natalie thought it was time to go trick-or-treating and I had to tell her it's still a few weeks away. :( Ok, gotta go take care of my little monkey-monks. Hayden is starting to sneeze now....aaaaaaaaand, here we go. :( XO!! Mom

Ideas...SQUASHED!

For the last two days Natalie has begged me to be Repunzel for Halloween. After MONTHS of me trying to figure out how to make my little girl's dreams come true with a fantastic "super thunderstorm" costume that she wanted so badly...I feel sad. I know kids are chronic mind changers, but I feel more crushed that our whole weather family thing isn't going to happen. Why do I have to say yes to her new idea??? I know...I KNOW....cause I HAVE to. :( I sometimes find the whole princess thing a little on the boring side. Sorry my girls, it's just on the days when you want to be a rock star or an "animal doctor" or even a pirate, it thrills me a little more. :) But what can I say, I think I at least have one princess and there's absolutely nothing I can do to change her, nor would I want to. I tell them both every day to just be who they are. It doesn't matter what anyone thinks. Staying true to yourself is the most important accessory. I think it took me 35 years to figure that one out. Hopefully I can encourage them and get them to that place a little sooner. :) Football season is in full swing. Hayden loves saying "BOOMER SOONER!" and says "football!" when she sees a game on. It's really cute and surprised at how much she soaks up. (good and bad..haha) Natalie is really loving school. Yesterday she went on and on about how fun it was. That's my favorite time of the day, picking her up and hearing all about it. :) She's learning names and comes home with a "new friend's" name almost every school day. So excited for Fall! Today it's raining and it's going to continue off and on for a couple more days. It's movie day and we are watching Tangled. :) Love you girls, lets have a great day!!

Haydee is 18 months old!!

Yesterday was my Haydee girl's 18 month birth "anniversary." :) I can't believe it's already been a year and a half!! She is my crazy girl. Constantly talking and trying new things, whether we like it or not. We've been enjoying our tuesday and thursday mornings together while sister is in school. I've never had a real chance to bond with her on a one-on-one basis and I'm glad I get a chance now. Maybe she doesn't notice or even care, but I do. It's good for my soul so that makes it so good for her too. :) We just got through with our major kitchen reno/cabinet painting. It was crazy having the house torn up for 2 weeks, but it makes things so much sweeter now that it's done and pretty :) Anyway, thank you girls, for being soooo patient with mommy and daddy during a "crazy mommy idea/project." :) It didn't seem to faze you at all. That's why I love my little easy going girls....well easy going in MOST things ;) LOVE YOU bunchy bunchies!!! XO Mom

Natalie's First Day of School!

Today is Natalie's first day of Pre-k school. She's only doing 2 day/half days, but still...it was SO hard for me to leave her with "strangers." She did so great though and looking forward to it for so many weeks. Luckily we got to have a play date for about 30 minutes prior to this, so she got used to it a little bit. As soon as we walked in, you went straight for the teacher (Ms. Val) and showed her your backpack and lunch bag. Mommy was dumb and made you your fave sandwich, pb and j, but it's a "peanut free facility" so I had to bring it home. You have plenty more to chow on, and can have the sandwich when I pick you up at 1. :) There were lots of kids in there already and you started playing immediately. I'm nervous about all the things you are going to have to do on your own or depend on someone else for. In your 4 years of life, I've always done everything for you....so trusting in someone else and letting you learn your independence is pretty frightening for me. I will admit, as I have in the past, that I'm a bit OCD when it comes to things. I have to learn to relinquish control. It's good for all of us. :)

Last night y'all were looking at two different animal books, making the sounds of all the animals and chit chatting. Hayden said, "Hug" and gave you a hug Nat. Then Natalie said, "aww Hayden...you're just the best sister." It was the sweetest thing and it melted my heart. I will never forget it and I think I teared up a little bit. I love watching you girls grow into your own personalities. Hayden you say so many words and Natalie your compassion and sense of humor is in full bloom. Fall is almost upon us and the real fun begins, for mommy. :) I can't wait for fall decorating and halloween projects and the start of the holiday season. LATER SUMMER!! We have been in our cabinet painting project for a full week now and you guys are adapting to the craziness; dust, stuff everywhere, complete chaos. You don't ask many questions, just keep on keepin' on. Mommy and daddy can't wait till it's all done and we can enjoy our kitchen again!! Love you!!!! XO Mom

This and that...

I realized after my second child that there is a pro and con situation with when they start talking. Pro...they tell you what they want. Con...they tell you what they want. :) Really it's awesome that Hayden can tell me, "Mommy...I hungee" or "Mommy, huhts" (while pointing at a body part that hurts). Of course she likes to tell on her sister when she isn't getting her way. It's so painful and yet so funny to watch them interact. One minute they are about to go all WWF in the middle of the kitchen. The next minute they are singing and playing "ring around the rosy (which by the way, have you ever paid close attention to the lyrics?? It's kinda sad singing about disease!)." Things can get way out of control fast, but then the seem to calm down almost as fast. Siblings have such a unique relationship. Hot to cold, warm to boiling, etc etc etc. It's been a long hot summer. There have been so many happy and fun memories. I can't wait to write my summer wrap up. Can you tell I'm chomping at the bit?? :) My summer has been extraordinary, I must admit. I really love this DIY/refurb/flip stuff. I can actually sit still and do something well and really learn from it. If I get better, maybe I'll create a separate blog to discuss my projects. Although there are about a million blogs about the same thing, my two cents and my ideas wouldn't hurt anything. :) Natalie is so into Hello Kitty right now. She HAD to have a hello kitty back pack and lunch bag for school. She asked me, "do you think the kids will like it, mom?" I said, "It doesn't matter if everyone likes it or hates it. what matters is that YOU like it. No matter what anyone says, it's cool if you like it." Never too early to try to teach my kiddos to just be and love themselves. School starts in 2 weeks!! I'm excited for you Natalie but also not really ready to have you out of the house in someone else's care for a few hours a week. It's me ripping the bandaid off slowly before kinder. YIKES...that's going to freak my freak. :( Love you both! It's nap time!! XO Mom

Calendar of Events

Soooo, recently I've been thinking about creating a white board calendar of "to dos" for the girls, well mostly Natalie since Hayden doesn't really get stuff like that ...yet. :) I also thought, what a great way to incorporate a "reward board" at the same time. Natalie does something nice, or good, like sharing or trying hard with no whining, she gets a star for the day. She can collect several stars or get them taken away. You don't like that part, Nat, so I'm hoping you learn a little bit about cause and effect in the process. If she gets 7 or more by the end of the week she gets a special treat! She's already loving it and we're on day 2. On the calendar I write two to three things we are going to do each day or try for the first time. I love that it gives Natalie stuff to look forward to and it is teaching her the days of the week in the process. She wanted to check the "agenda" last night to see what fun things she was in store for. So we did ballet today and she was so into it. I gave her a star cause she was learning so well and really seemed focused, which for her...is...HUGE. It was a lot of fun to watch. Yesterday we did gymnastics and she learned how to do a summersault without me even helping her. I was helping her sister do a back flip (which they both love to do), and saw from the corner of my eye, Natalie roll over! I was super proud of her...again, this...is...huge! She is very cautious and to see her be a little adventurous was just amazing to me. Hayden of course, is a little too adventurous, but watching her excited and learning some new capabilities was pretty cool to say the least. :) Today I was on the treadmill for an HOUR and even though y'all were playing, Hayden could tell it was longer than usual. I couldn't help it, I really need it to clear my head and get focused. Recently I've been feeling "not myself" and I know exactly what I need to do. I like being in the midst of a hard cardio session just because I feel the fog lifting and my mind clearing as sweat pours down my face and back. I realize I can get really emotional about some things and normally probably over react. And by the time you read this you will know for SURE that your mom is NOT like this. :) tee hee. In all seriousness though, I need to follow my own convictions of being a good person. Yea, I may not be like everyone else, but I also have to remember compassion and freedom to just be who you are which makes our country SO freakin' great. I don't want anyone to feel hate on me, so I shouldn't feel hate on anyone else. It's all about that book I love so much by Ms. Byron Katie, "Loving What Is." No one can hurt you, but YOU. The way you think and project probably has nothing to do with how things really are. The reality of what is can get so clouded by negative thoughts that creep in. I just want you girls to understand that even your "big shot" mama has moments of humility and sometimes I just need to take a step back and realize that life is so beautiful. Friendships and relationships of any kind are so beautiful and I treasure every single one of mine. :) XOXOX! Mom

My girls are SO fun!!

We have been doing a lot of projects lately. Where Hayden can't help, she colors and she totally feels like a big girl. :) Pretty much anything we ask Hayden to say, she says it. The other day we told her to her sister "don't cry." She cocked her head to the side and made a sweet little sad face, "no cryyyyy, thither." I wanted to cry. It was SO adorable and it prompted Natalie to put a smile on her face. :) Hayden is now saying Mommy which melts my heart. Mama is ok...but to hear her say, "moooommmmyyyy" is the bestest. If I go somewhere and daddy watched her, I ask her "did you miss mommy?" with a pitiful sounding voice she says, 'yeeeeaaaaaa" and hugs me tight. WOW could life be any better????? Natalie is learning so many things on a daily basis and is morphing into someone really funny. She says things in a silly way, or tells a joke and even practices funny faces in the mirror. Hayden has learned to stand her ground and push her sister out of the way when she's bothering her. She still gets extremely frustrated when she can't figure something out. I'm not really suuuure where she gets it from, so I'll blame her daddy. ;) She is a little comedian herself! Moves slowly while giving us looks from the corner of her eyes then starts laughing hysterically. Yea, she so knows what she's doing. Natalie is getting really great at cooking/baking, except when she cracks an egg, she throws the shell into the bowl also. wtheck?? When I asked her why she does that, she answers, "because it's so slimy." pff...my girls are little miss prisses. They don't like getting dirty; sand in their shoes; crumbs or sticky stuff on their fingers; etc; etc. It's good but also a little on the annoying side.

We went to a night baseball game the other night and the girls had a lot of fun even though it was hot hot hot!!

Natalie went to the dentist for her 6 month check up and I was worried. Her first time was pretty "harry." :( This time around was VERY different. She was mature and didn't whine or cry in the least. Bravery took center stage and she was a rock star. I was so proud and relieved as we were leaving that I had to stop myself from crying. GO GIRL!! You got to pick out two projects (princess foamy stickers and foamy bracelets) for being such a good girl. I'm so proud of you two, for all the things you learn on a daily basis and for the people you are becoming!! My girls, you are my everything and I enjoy creating and exploring and just cuddling with you every chance I get. I am trying with everything I have to just be a kind person and to be someone you will look up to all your lives. I will, every single day of my life, count my joys which includes the two of you. :) Love you too much!!!! :) XO Mom